Let The Drama Continue!!!!

Soooooo I spoke too soon. I went to the Dr. today due to my issue I stated in yesterdays post. Also I had contractions all night last nigh. Ok back to my appt. Ugggghhh I was checked for a UTI and nope not that. I have a different kind of infection. It's a kind that causes preterm labor and your water breaking prematurely. My Dr. also checked me for dilation. I'm already dilated to 1 cm and 50% effaced. Not very good when your are still 8 weeks from your due date. That's about where I was when I went into labor with Benjamin. So I'm to take a antibiotic (it doesn't mean it will help me not going into labor early either) and next week Dr. is going to do a test to see if I'll go into labor within the next 2 weeks. Fun fun stuff huh! So I need lots of prayers that this little baby will stay put for at least 5 more weeks.

Pregnancy Journal Week 32

This week has been good. No troubling contractions...... until last night. They are gone now so that's good. I may have a UTI (tmi I know) So I get to go the Dr. tomorrow. Yeah for me (insert sarcasm here). Having a UTI is bad during pregnancy as it can cause preterm labor and I don't need that. I still have at least 6 weeks to go and I don't want anymore hospital visits. All will be well though. It was funny the other night Jonathan called me and told me we have to start getting ready for baby. I haven't been in too much of a rush. Isn't the other way around? He says how very excited he is for the baby to come. I'm excited too but I'm a little overwhelmed. It's going to be interesting having 5 kids. I'm very excited that I get to have a baby room. This is the first time I've been able to have a baby room. We were renting when Lily came and she shared with the office. Then it was the kids always sharing rooms after that. But now since we put up a wall in the loft and made an extra bedroom I get to just have fun and make a girly baby room. I'm not in too much of a hurry as she won't even be in it for a while. Well we are in the home stretch and I'm so ready to be at the finish line.

side note: I'm stopping the monday memories for a little while. I'll start it back up when I'm not so overwhelmed with back to school stuff.

Pregnancy Journal Week 31

Baby sucking her thumb

Baby face shot

I've had a calm week this week, and I'm grateful. I had an appt. today and it went well. It was a uneventful appt. I asked again when I would be induced, and if I had to be. He said that I have to be and it would be the week of 9/9/09. So I'm going to have the baby around 2 weeks early. Yeah I only have 7 weeks to go instead of 9. I mostly can't wait until I'm off of this blood thinner. He was thinking of inducing me at 39 weeks but since I have gone early in the past he doesn't want to go past 38 weeks. I'm happy because I don't want to have this baby to close to Emma's birthday which is the 19th. Also mine is the 7th but it's ok if I go close to my birthday. Lots of birthdays in Sept. Ohhhh so busy. I have another appt in 2 weeks and then I have to visit the vampires again. I probably have to go get blood work 2 more times and then I'm done. I know this has been a challenging pregnancy but as long as the outcome is a healthy baby I wouldn't change it. Everything happens for a reason, and I'll take what comes to me and trust it's for the best.

Monday Memory #21

Emma's 2 months old in this picture. I loved this picture, and still do. She was such a pretty baby and now a very pretty girl. It's funny how she still gives us this look all the time. I love Emma she is such a sweet helpful little girl that has such honest desires.

Pregnancy Journal Week 30

I only have at the most 10 weeks left. I can count them on 2 hands. After last weeks scare I've been trying to take it easy. I don't want anymore of that. I'm just glad to have this little baby baking for many more weeks. I asked when I would be able to go off of the blood thinners and he said that I go off of them 1-2 day before I deliver. When would that be. It's kinda scary to think that if I don't get off of them before I go into labor there could be major bleeding issues. I'm just paranoid I know. I think everything is going to be ok. Other than contractions and some nights of no sleep (like tonight..... seriously I have yet to fall asleep and it's 5:18 in the morning) everything is going well. Baby is moving around just great. I haven't been using my doppler because I just feel her move. I'm still going to the Dr. every 2 weeks and getting blood work every 4. Pretty soon I'll be going weekly. I'm sure I'll miss certain parts of pregnancy once I'm done. I'll miss feeling a baby inside of me. I'll miss the excitement Jonathan and I get when we talk about the new little person that we have the pleasure of raising. How she will get along in the family. I wonder how Peter is going to react. How Benjamin is going to cope with having to share mommy with yet another sibling. What the look on Emma and Lily's faces will be when they first see the little sister they are so excited to meet. Knowing that this is my last pregnancy. That this era of my life is coming to a close, and I'm able to concentrate on a new era. I'm ready..... I'm ready to be a mother of growing children and not growing children in me. I've been so blessed to have so many of them. But after all the complications I've had, it's time... and I'm at peace with it all.

Monday Memory #20

Emma's blessing was wonderful. It was November 2, 2003 and we had lots of family there. It's always nice to have so many priesthood holders in the family to participate in such a special ordinance. It's so weird to see us as only a family of 4.

L&D

On Wednesday day/night I was getting some pretty intense pressure in my pelvis, and some contractions. I didn't think much of the contractions, because it's a regular occurrence for me. The pelvic pressure wasn't. It was something I would only feel right before I would give birth to my children. So it concerned me some but I didn't want to jump the gun just in case it was nothing. After it kept me up the entire night, and didn't go away that morning I decided to call my Dr. after some advice that I should. I left a message with the nurse and tried to lay down the best that I could with 4 kids needing to be looked after. I was still feeling this constant pressure, and starting to get uncomfortable contractions. The nurse called back a couple of hours later and told me that I needed to go get monitored at labor and delivery. UGHHHHH not this again. Seems like a repeat of Emma. I went in so much with her. I don't think my body likes to be pregnant in the summer. So after dropping off my kids at my sister in laws house my mother in law drove me to the hospital and Jonathan met me there. They hooked me up to the monitors and tried to find out what the problem was. They said I didn't have any contractions the whole time I was there, but I did. I think they had the contraction sensor up too high on my belly. It's ok, if it showed they would have given me this drug to stop them and that stuff is horrible. They stopped on their own anyway. They did an ultrasound and I got some great pictures. (I'll post them later) Miriam is weighing 2lbs 14oz at the moment. After a while they said they couldn't figure why I was having this pressure and sent me home to go to my dr. so he could do another ultrasound to see if he could solve the mystery. The next day I go to the Dr. and he does an ultrasound and sees that the babies head is laying right on my cervix and the last time I went in which was a week ago she was laying across my belly. So the pressure was most likely from her moving to head down position and putting pressure on my cervix. I have to be more careful and not stand for long periods of time, stay out of the heat, and not carry Benjamin too much. It's going to be hard because I just want to get things done right now. But a baby born 10 + weeks too early is not a good thing. So the drama of this pregnancy continues and tune in next week to see what happens. Hopefully nothing.

Pregnancy Journal Week 29

Wow I only have at the very most 11 weeks left. I remember when I hit 11 weeks. I'm so glad that it's coming to an end. It will be weird to stop getting shots daily. Don't worry I'm not going to miss it at all. This week has been pretty much the same. I'm still feeling a little off from the blood sugar issues. Pregnancy hormones haven't been to kind to me (or Jonathan). I'm nice to Jonathan but I got a major craving for ice cream tonight and demanded that he get me some sugar free kind. So that is where he is right now being a understanding husband that wants to have a happy hormonal wife. This is the first time I have been taken over by the craving monster, and I hope the last. I have an appt. next wends. and I hope that it is very uneventful. I still get contractions every other day. Last night they hurt a lot. Maybe I'm just a wimp, and oh I know I am a wimp. I have very little pain tolerance. I still don't understand how I gave birth to Peter completely natural. The thought of if just gives me nightmares. I just know that epidurals are my best friends. Other than the aches and pains of pregnancy I'm really enjoying feeling the movements of my baby and imagining what she's going to look like. I'm excited to doll her up. I've missed having a pretty little baby girl. My older pretty little girls are so fun, but just the thought of a baby girl is exciting for me.

Monday Memory #19

This is Emma's first bath. I have never yet had a baby that screamed so loud and for so long as Emma did. It sounded like we were torturing this poor baby. She hated it something fierce. She loves baths now.
Oh and Emma can be somewhat dramatic as well.

Pregnancy Journal Week 28

OHHHHH the drama this week has been. I'm just glad that I'm still alive and kicking......... I know I know drama. Really it's been a hard week. So starting Saturday while at the Temple I was having pretty intense contractions, and the poor lady next to me was like "are you ok? Do you need to leave." I assured her that this was a normal occurrence for me and I would be fine. I was fine and had a wonderful time there and enjoyed going to the Temple. Then throughout the weekend and into Monday I was feeling really sick. I would get really dizzy and feel as if I could pass out any second. On Tuesday I went to get my 3 hour glucose test done and during the 2nd hour draw I started to get really dizzy I told the nurse I wasn't feeling well and she helped me up to go lay down and the next thing I know I was kneeling by the bed saying I'm ok I'm ok. She said no you're not and helped me up to lay on the bed. So apparently I fainted. There is a first time for everything. I felt awful the rest of the day and Jonathan practically waited on my the rest of the day. I have a wonderful husband just so you know. Then comes to today..... I find out at my Drs. office that I have hypoglycemia. I have to eat every 3 hours, and stay away from sugar. The sugar part is no big deal for me, but the eating so often is going to be very tough for me. I'm just glad that I have an answer as to why I have felt so awful this pregnancy. I didn't want to make a big deal of it. I know why I have been so weak, and dizzy all the time. I'm just so glad my Dr. is watching out for me. He says I'm just so complicated, and I agree. Oh baby is moving around just great. I'm measuring right on time. Just 12 weeks to go at the most and I'm counting down.

WAHHHHHH!!!!!! (again)

No they didn't get my labs wrong......... Boy I wish they had. I failed the gestational diabetes test. Now I have to go into and take the 3 hour test. I have to go in and get my blood drawn four times. My aunt suggested that there is a vampire there that really likes my blood because they are draining me of it. If I fail this one I have gestational diabetes. UGHHHH what next. I have everything under the sun this pregnancy. I feel as if Heavenly Father is saying you are done...... count your blessings and be done. So I'll update as soon as I find out what my fate shall be. You know it's ok to be alittle dramatic when you are pregnant. It comes with the territory.

Monday Memory #18

Lily loves her new baby sister. It was so sweet seeing Lily finally warming up to Emma. At first Lily didn't want anything to do with me or Emma. She got over that and they have been best friends ever since.

WAHHHHHHH!!!!!

The lab didn't get enough of my blood yesterday so I have to go in again. Why do they mess up with me all the time. I told them I was on blood thinners and that's the test they didn't get the blood for. This is the second time they have done this. Maybe I should go to another location next time.

Pregnancy Journal Week 27

This week has been a good week. I haven't had very many contractions............ until tonight. It seems when I do alot I get them. I had my gestational diabetes test today. It wasn't so bad. I didn't get as sick as I thought I would be. But I'm scared I got a message after I got home from the lab I got the test taken at today. They were already closed so I couldn't call. I'm so scared they did the test wrong and I have to redo it. It's happened before at this lab. I so hope not. Good news is that with our new insurance my blood thinners are 35 dollars a month compared to 135 dollars we were paying. YEEESSSSSS. That was pretty expensive. I'm feeling the baby move more. Just watch I'm updating that she doesn't move very much next week. It seems as if she is very sporadic in the frequency of her movements. I'll get a ultrasound in 3 weeks if my Dr. doesn't change it again. I can say that I'm in my 3rd trimester. I'm so excited that the time is coming to an end. I just want this baby out and I can be sane again. Hormones are rough aren't they. I love that I'm able to be pregnant with all my problems, but I'm just ready to be done. Also babies are so much funner out rather than in.

Monday Memory #17

When I was pregnant with Emma it was quite the experience. At 32 weeks I started to feel contractions 10 mins. apart. I was getting scared so I went into the hospital to see what was going on. When they hooked me up I was contracting 5 min apart. They gave me fluids and a drug that would stop my contractions. It worked and I was sent home. I was so glad that she didn't come at that time. Fast forward 2 weeks I again started to contract every 5 min. So I went in again to have the same protocol performed. Then ditto to the next week and then I had a week break and went in again at 37 weeks on my birthday. I was having contractions and they just stopped so I was sent home. I went in to have a Non stress test at 38 weeks and they said I was 4 cm dilated and was hoping the dr. would let me stay, but he didn't. At 39 weeks I got really bad contractions about 9 pm and went in AGAIN, but this time I was 5 cm dilated. Dr's don't send you home after 5 cms. I got my epidural soon after I got there and guess what happened I stalled. So I laid there for a very long time until they gave me pitocin to start my labor back up. My Dr. came in at 8:30 in the morning to break my water. 1 and 1/2 hour later my nurse came in and said Emma's heart rate was going down and I was ready to push. I pushed for 30 min and Emma came out with the cord wrapped around her neck so tight that the Dr. couldn't cut it, take it off her head, and he had to pull it down her body as she came out. She was pretty purple when she came out. She was so bright eyed and quiet. She was laying on the warmer so quiet I thought she wasn't breathing. But she was just observing everything and that is how she is.

Oh I love epidurals........ You don't smile while in labor doing it natural.

Lily meeting her new sister. Now they get along so well.

Mommy and Emma.

Daddy and his little clone. Emma is just like Jonathan. She walks like him, stands like him, and the same exact personality as Jonathan. I sure love my little girl. She has such a sweet spirit that blessed our family.

Peter the GOOF.

Peter loves to be a GOOF. He's always trying new things to make me laugh. He runs up to me with his shirt on weird or something wacky on his head declaring "Mommy I'm a GOOF". I just laugh and say yes you are. Here I give you the clown of the family. Just to mention the picture above was all Peter's idea.

His new toy.

Benjamin's new favorite thing to do is play with cups. If there is ever a cup laying around he will have it in his mouth carrying it around.

But then he runs into things and it bumps his nose.

But it's still all smiles.

How can you get so much joy from a cup?

His loves to do a trick. Look no hands Mom!!!!

Pregnancy Journal Week 26

The end is steadily approaching us, and I'm so glad. I can't wait until I don't have to have Jonathan give me shots anymore. Only 10 more weeks of them. Wait I haven't even been on them for 10 weeks. UGHHHH I was thinking I was more than half way done. Oh well whatever to keep my baby healthy and alive. It seems as if she's a quiet little thing. She's not as active as my 4 others were. Good thing I still use my Doppler and if I ever worry I use it and am relieved. Pregnancy can be so stressful. It's amazing how protective you get over someone you have never met. My insomnia is in full swing now. I'm getting like 3 hours of sleep at night. it's just not fun, but I know that once the baby comes I'll have the ability to sleep. Yes I'll be up in the night feeding but it's just different. Jonathan and I were talking the other night and he said in 3 months we are going to have another little baby in the house and how exciting it was. I told him that I know I'm pregnant but I can't wrap my head around the fact that the baby is going to come out. I better mentally prepare myself soon huh. Jonathan has been so excited about this pregnancy from the beginning. He was hoping that I would get pregnant on accident. He would want 10 kids if it were possible. But he's so glad that we got the kids we do have as someone with my problem usually doesn't have as many and as easily. It really is a blessing from our Heavenly Father. We also couldn't be happier with the line up of kids we did have. 2 girls 2 boys and then to end it off with another girl. We are just pleased. I really feel as if our family is going to be complete. I'm also glad that my baby making days are coming to the end because pregnancy isn't too kind to me. I wish I could say that I felt great during pregnancy, but I don't. I love the fact that I've had the opportunity so many times, but I'm glad it only lasts 9 months. I wouldn't do good if humans had a gestation of a Elephant.

Monday Memory #16

Here is when Lily was old enough to swing on a regular swing (with the help of daddy).

It was so fun to see them bond together.

My Little Dolls.

It's so fun having girls. When ever I have the time I doll them up for church or whatever.

I just love how cute they are in curls.