Glasses break!!

Lilys glasses have broken 3 times. Wire glasses and kids don't mix. So we went and changed them out for some plastic ones. Hopefully these last a lot longer. We will have to get a backup pair as well. Doesn't she look sooooo old. Sigh!!


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Being a Mother

As mothers day is tomorrow I think about the precious gift I have. I love being a mother to my beautiful children. I wouldn't want anything else. I dont want some glamourous career, or free time to do whatever I want. I love that my days are full of messes, sticky hands, tantrums, laundry, cleaning the same things over and over. I'll take the sleepless nights and crazy days over being without my kids. I've been entrusted with these little angels and it's expected of me to do my very best. I try so very hard to be the best mom I can. There are days where I'm so close to checking my self into the funny farm. Then I get sweet hugs from my babies. My older kids come up with the silliest stuff. I laugh I cry I wonder and I'm in awe in my experiences as a mother. I wouldnt have it another way. I love being a mother.

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Twins and D&C

I went into the dr and got a follow up ultrasound just to make sure everything stayed the same or by a miracle things got better. As we looked around and saw 2 little yolk sacks which is the start of a baby. I couldn't believe it. I thought for sure I would NEVER get pregnant with twins. Jonathan saw the 2 "babies" and got really disappointed he really wanted twins. He had a goal of 7 kids. Poor guy. But I got my answer as to why I lost them. First of all my progesterone wasn't nearly high enough to support two pregnancies. If you remember my last pregnancy..... That was hard, and can you imagine doubling it. I really don't think my body could of handled it and I would be in serious trouble. Heavenly Father really spared me. I needed to be able to take care of my 5 blessings I have now. So after the ultrasound Jonathan and I went to check in for surgery. We waited a bit and went back. After a while they starred the process and put some sleepy drugs into my IV. I'm really sensitive to any type of drugs so I was out fast. It was so weird cause it was like I blinked and I was awake. I asked if it was over and they told me I was all done. I was so groggy and my throat hurt because I had to have a breathing tube in. I was in a ton of pain due to a lot of gas build up. I had to get the max amount of pain relievers and it still didn't help. I have a low pain tolerance and to think I had natural child birth. Well anyway Jonathan waited through the whole thing and was so helpful to me. I really have the best husband ever. He is so strong through all of this. He really did lose a lot. He really really wanted twins. Not like I didn't but he's dreamed of them for along time. After I got home I got to recover a little more as margaret and Jonathan took care of the kids. But I couldn't resist and I had Jonathan bring Miriam in to me so I could hold her and slowly get her to sleep. I'm so grateful for my babies. Just to think I could have lost anyone of them. Heavenly Father knew my desires to be a mother and truly blessed me with 5 miracles. I was reminded of that from the nurse at the hospital. She was amazed I had what I have. PCOS makes it hard to even have 1. My testimony has grown leaps and bounds after this experience. Im grateful for trials as I have a chance to count my many blessing and realize the many mercies of God. We are not going to try again. After losing 8 babies we see that as too much. I'm happy and I'm at peace. I truly have so much to be grateful for.






See the two circles those are the yolk sacks. When we looked closer we could se the fetal poles. I know one had shrunk but I don't know how much the other did as we didn't even know it was there. One was measuring 7 weeks the other was measuring 6 weeks.

Waiting

Here I am still waiting on my miscarriage. I wish I just had some sort of closure. Everyday I wonder if today is the day it will start. My body doesn't seem to want to let go. I don't blame it cause in a way I don't want this to be over. I want it to be a huge ultrasound error and I'll get unexpected news that my baby is still alive. I got some blood work done yesterday and hopefully I'll find out more about this whole mess. Through this whole thing I've learned a lot and I'm grateful for those lessons. I just wish learning wasn't so hard sometimes.


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Dr. Appt NOT so good.

Wow what a day. I woke up this morning feeling leery and just not right. I got the girls to school and off I went to the dr. We talked about my history and made some plans as to prevent pre term labor and what tests we would do and such. We went to do the ultrasound and it didn't look right. 2 weeks ago I got one done at a private ultrasound place and the baby looked great and we heard the heartbeat. But this time I could barely see a thing and there was no little flicker. All was still and my heart sank. I knew what this was. My body still thinks I'm pregnant but the baby stopped growing. If I don't pass the baby naturally I'll have to get a D&C. Ugh. I don't want to do either. This really does stink majorly. So as of now we are testing the hormones in my blood to see if they are rising or falling. But I don't see any hope. There was a heartbeat and now there isn't. It's just over or almost over. I'm becoming more at peace with all of this. I have 5 beautiful children that love me so much. I've been blessed in so many ways. This just happens and with my problems it's more likely. I have a fertility disease called PCOS and with that I have a miscarriage rate of 64%. Well 5 children 7 miscarriages it sounds about right. I really think the baby making factory is officially closed. I'm alright really. I've gotten tons of support and I really appreciate that. I'm just so glad I have the babies I have now. I just could use some prayers that this is resolved quickly.

9 weeks

This pregnancy is still pretty boring. Which is OK by me. I'm not too sick either which I'm loving. Just exhausted which I'm hoping will subside soon. I have my first appointment with my new OB tomorrow. I'll get another Ultrasound and discuss what they are going to do with me. I'm just glad that this has been bit more mild than my last pregnancy. So I'll post the Ultrasound pic tomorrow and any thing else I find out.

I think I shrunk from last week.

Yay go away bloat.

Look whats in my garden

It wasn't there yesterday. It just shot up. I didn't plant it either. My kids call it jrs dad.


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Look at my MiMi

I caught Miriam playing with the mirror today. She is just too cute.

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8 weeks

I hope I don't jinx myself, but........ I'm still not THAT sick. I'm sick some days but other than that it's not that bad. I'm just really tired all the time. I'm still really bloated, but at least it's not getting worse. I have moments when I start to panic at the thought of 6 kids. Then I get excited. We have to get creative to figure out the room situation. If it's a girl then we'll have 2 in each room. If it's a boy I'm not sure. Nothing has been going on really. I like that it's been boring so far. I think I need a boring pregnancy. Hopefully it stays this way. The kids are super excited. Peter always asks when the baby is going to get here. I say Nov - Dec and he says is that tomorrow. Funny kid. He's also convinced it's a boy and the girls think it's a girl. One of them is going to be disappointed. I think they'll get used to the idea no matter what it is. They love having lots of brothers and sisters.

I don't see much of a difference from last week. It's ok I don't wanna grow too fast.

8 weeks

7 weeks

Ohhh dear

Hehe

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Ultrasound

There it is. We have a little squish hanging out in my belly. Everything looks good.



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7 weeks

This week has been really good. I haven't really been sick that much. I'm used to starting feeling really icky by now but I have fleeting moments of it and that's it. Maybe I deserve a easy pregnancy this time around. Really my only complaint is I'm soooooo tired and I get a stuffy nose in the mornings. Not much huh!! I'm growing at record speeds (for me). Has anyone else pregnant with their 6th start growing so fast. It's amazing. I'm sure it's going to slow down, but boy does my body KNOW what to do now. I'm running out of clothes. Fun stuff.

5 weeks

6 weeks

7 weeks :0

My Cutie

When did she get sooooo big. She's so sweet and makes cute little noises. Boy am I just toooo lucky.

This is a face she always makes.

I love her

Best Friends

Now that Benjamin is older Peter loves to play with him. Today they were playing blanket ghosts. These are the moments that make mommyhood so great.

Cinnamon Rolls

Miriam has been chowing down on cinnamon rolls like crazy.

Happiness

See this boy......... The way he was rejecting the potty I thought for sure I was going to have 3 in diapers come Nov-Dec. I stuck with it and now drum roll please. He's in underwear. He's not 100% potty trained but he's almost there. He knows how to do it, it's just I get side tracked or he does but I've potty trained or in the process of potty training 4 kids. I know it's only a couple weeks away. YAY!!!! Plus we are saving 30 plus dollars a month so that's good. I wonder what the odds are that I could get Miriam potty trained by Nov. She'll only be 2 and a couple of months. I've never got them trained until almost 3 (in benjis case after 3) You know what miracles do happen, and I'm ready for one. We'll see.

6 weeks

Here I am 6 weeks pregnant for the 6th time. Not counting my miscarriages though. I pretty much know the routine. Start off being tired, and I seem to have trouble stopping my eyes from leaking. Everything sets it off. But I have pretty good control when it comes to revealing the water works. Sickness has been at bay until this morning. Yeah it seems as if I hit 6 weeks to the day and BAM. I know it lasts just a little bit but oh it makes the months drag. Jonathan and I are getting some boy feelings this time around. It would make it even but it goes off our little pattern. 2 girls 2 boys 1 girl and ?. We could be completely wrong. I am determined that this is the LAST one. Huh this all sounds familiar. I read back to all my blog posts about my last pregnancy and I read all my feelings about being done, and I laugh. It just shows who is in charge here right.

I have an appointment in 3 weeks. I don't know if these dr.'s are good or not. I'll be rotated through 3 or 4 women Dr.'s. They may put me on progesterone injections once a week to make sure I don't have preterm labor starting at 16 weeks. At least it's not daily. So here we go with another pregnancy adventure.

BEFORE

6 weeks and a ton of bloat!

This better not be a indication that I'm going to be growing super fast.

I think my stomach muscles are shot. Nothing to hold all my insides from being pushed out.

It's not baby. The baby is the size of a sweet pea right now.

Vrrroommmm

Benji loves his car he got for his birthday Grandma Margaret thanks for sending it too him.

Emma

She is such a hugemongous helper. She loves to go what's right. She's always willing to change stinky diapers for me. She was the first in her class to finish 10 book reports that you do on your own time. They don't have a due date either. She just likes to succeed. She's a little dramatic but she's a girl what do you expect. She loves to make you feel loved. I'm so lucky to have her.

Igloos

I forgot to blog about this. How could I?? When I was a kid we made igloos in our backyards quite frequently. We would kind of destroy each others. It was an on going thing. So I HAD to make a igloo with my family. It was super small but it was fun.

Week 5

I can't believe that I'm doing this again. I liked that I kept a journal last time. So I'm doing it again. Just this time I'll take picture of my belly growing more. Well how did this happen?? I guess when the lord wants something he makes a way for it. I'm excited and kind of scared. Six kids is a huge responsibility. But there is a lot of love to be felt with every child you get raise. I'm just starting to feel slightly sick. I'm tired and dizzy. Im so bloated which stinks. I guess it's good to feel the symptoms. I hope i dont get to big to fast. I have an appt april 29th for my first ultrasound. I'll be 9 weeks then. I got my progesterone checked because I've had issues before and it's good. I don't have to take any supplements which will cut down on the icky feeling. I'm due December 1st. I really don't think I'll make it to my due date. Lets hope for a super easy pregnancy and healthy baby. Oh there is this interesting article out there about where the baby implants in the uterus and gender. If you look at an early ultrasound like around 8 weeks and you look in the sack if the baby is on the right of the sack it's a boy and if the baby is on the left it's a girl. I looked at 3 of my kids us pictures and it was right. I couldnt find the other two. The article said that it's about 97% correct. We will see what we see on my ultrasound and it's fun to see if it turns out right again.


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Lily's Glasses

I forgot to blog about Lily's glasses. Well she just couldn't see and didn't tell us about it. One eye was 20/100 the other was 20/200. Poor thing. It was so funny when she put them on she had the most amazed look on her face. She looks older and that stinks though

April Fools?

hmmmmmm??????

Utah Weather

The weather around here has been so crazy. It's warmish and then it's snowing all day. Then by the afternoon it's as if it never happened. Crazy





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Miriams dance

Miriam loves to dance.

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Happy Birthday Bug Wug

I can't believe he's 3 already. He's growing up so fast. I love this little guy. We had my Brothers, 2 of my nieces and my soon to be Sister in law Allison. It was lots of fun.

Fabric Flowers

I'm making as many different kinds of fabric flowers for my girls as I can.

Trip to AZ

We went back to AZ recently to see Jonathan's brother that just got home from his mission. It was lots of fun and LOTS of driving. We got to visit cousins and send time with Daddy. Jonathan has lots of work all the time so during this visit he didn't have to do any work at all. It was nice.

Peter's Funny Faces

My boy make me laugh all the time. He's so funny. I love his silly faces that he makes.