Intervention

Sometimes our lives go through twists and turns you would never expect. As I said before I am getting a reversal. I had lots of back and forth thoughts. 8 months ago I had a dream that I had this perfect little boy and I fell in love with him instantly. The dream was so real I felt the baby in my arms and everything was right. When I woke up I felt an emptiness in my heart. I really wanted to get the surgery but I didn't think it was possible. It's a elective surgery so insurance doesn't pay. Out of no where Jonathan got a job offer that would make affording the surgery more likely. After Jonathan got the job we moved and then the holidays hit. I had pushed my thoughts of getting the surgery done to the back burner. Miriam was now in full day and I had so much time to get my house in order. I was so excited to experience some sort of freedom. As the weeks went on felt lonely and that something was missing. Right before Christmas I had another vivid dream and I was in the hospital holding a brand new baby girl.   All of the sudden the nurse takes the baby from my arms and tells me I can't have her. I ask why not. She then says that I can't HAVE her and walks away. Suddenly I'm at my kitchen table filling out paper work and making phone calls trying to get my baby back. I woke up from my dream having a hard time catching my breath and crying. Felt that dream was telling me that I couldn't have that baby is because physically it was impossible. I would have to go through a process in order to have that baby. The next day I researched Drs and talked with Jonathan. Jonathan is 110% on board with this and seemed so relived that I was so serious about this. I researched so many Drs and made so many calls to find the right one. The dr I wanted was booked out until the beginning of April for surgery and this was the beginning of January. I scheduled my consultation for 1/7 and decided to look and see if any other dr had an opening that wasnt so far away. No one would call me back so I decided to stick with the Dr I already had an appointment with. We went up to the snow at the end of Christmas break and as we were coming down the mountain I got the distinct impression to call the dr and see if there was a cancelation. As soon as I got reception on my phone I called. The lady that makes the schedule answered the phone and guess what. They just had a cancelation and a spot opened up for a couple weeks later. Even though I didn't have my consultation yet I asked her to put my name on the schedule. Everything fell into place just perfectly. Sometimes plans change and we get a little help from the other side. I'm glad I acted upon the inspiration I received.